Hello mates, and apologies for the long, unintended hiatus! I am posting something that I wrote just three months after moving here. Not the views I harbour any longer but thought it's still worth sharing! :-) And apologies again, I don't have pix to go with this, hehe
“What happens on the yoga mat, happens in real life too. So, do
what you can, because only you know your best. Take a deep breath in now, inhale….”
My yoga teacher said as I trailed off into a reverie.
I am lying on a
green-coloured yoga mat that I had borrowed from the fitness centre. The room
is not packed, unlike most places in Mumbai where I earlier lived. I have my space
here. Is that what is making me uncomfortable? I have been working harder than I ever did in Mumbai although life is not as strenuous. Probably that’s
making me uneasy. Or am I just homesick?
“Deep breathe out exhale… as you exhale throw the negative feelings out of your head,” Finn continued.
Do you know that feeling in school
when your class teacher gets into the classroom and you realize a) you haven’t done
your homework and b) you didn’t remember to copy it off your friend’s book
either? I feel that here on most days, like something is amiss… like I just
missed a train!
“When you compare yourself with others you become vain and
bitter. So, give your best, don’t compare…” Finn went on, unaware of the tussle
in my mind. Well, I am just comparing my own life a few months back and now.
Should I not do that either? I couldn’t ask Finn that because well, he was not
counseling me. I had gone for the class to get some stretch after a neck muscle
pulled giving me excruciating pain.
A lot of people in the last three months have asked me –
“So, why Australia?” or “why did you think of leaving Mumbai?” To be honest, I
never thought about that question before, except when I was preparing for the job
interview last June. I still don’t know the answer to the first one but to the
latter I’d say I was getting sick of being in Mumbai and I
wanted to run as fast as I could, as far as I could.
“Fold your knees to bring them closer to your chest, hug
them and turn to your left, spread your arms wide and turn your gaze to the
right. Keep breathing normally,” Finn moved on to another stretch exercise but
I was still stuck in Mumbai.
